It's so nice to have my degree, be married, and have a house. It's wonderful to have projects to work on for the house, and it's awesome to have a steady job. Yet, in the back of my mind, I keep thinking about all of the things I told myself I was going to do once I graduated, things I haven't started yet.
Like writing. My lifelong dream, something I haven't done in far too long. Yet there's a great opportunity, since November is National Novel Writing Month. The challenge: 50,000 words in 30 days. Hmmm... that equals 1,667 words per day, 69 words per hour, or about 1.2 words per minute. Broken down it doesn't seem so bad, right? Then why am I so apprehensive about it? Because, since I have a full time job, family, friends, getting involved at church, and other commitments, I'm not sure I can pull it off?
Or, the far more likely option, I am scared that my dream will come true. What's that quote ... "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.... our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond all measure." SO true!! Marianne Williamson is a very wise woman... that quote really gets me sometimes. I need to USE the gifts God has given me instead of hoarding them or thinking I'm not good enough.
So my next step would be to register, then to actually write. But write about what? They say to write about what you know. I suppose that would be a good place to start. I wonder of non-fiction counts in a novel writing challenge. I have a non-fiction idea that I am working on... I wonder if you can start writing beforehand and get a head start. That's probably cheating. =P
But I think I've decided to take this challenge. Like it says on the website (www.nanowrimo.org), it's about quantity, not quality. I just need to get it on paper instead of procrastinating.
I'm also excited to start volunteering. I wanted to volunteer at an animal shelter or something like that, but of course they are only open during business hours, so that was out. I think I would like to volunteer at Covenant or Mid-Michigan, so we'll see. :) I've been sort of focused on me for a while with all that's happened, and I need to start focusing on others and showing them God's love.
So this was sort of introspective. I'm also excited for possibly holding a housewarming party - nothing too fancy, just some time for people to come over and see the new house. Because it would be fun to show it off a little. :)
Well I'm going to read a little in my book (and registering for NaNoWriMo). I have to get up early to visit a client tomorrow for work.... makes for a long day. We'll see how that goes. :)
*Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others* - Marianne Williamson
I know you want to volunteer, but keep in mind what a service project the baby quilts are that we are making... That is volunteering as well. Though I know you'd like to do more.
ReplyDeleteWRITE! I want to read what you have to write!
I know what you mean about "Now what?" I was telling Ed today that I need to call SVSU and start on my BSN. I need to do something so I don't become stagnant. Thought I would have definitely chosen getting married instead, a BSN would work fine for now :)